Planting the Plum Tree

Finding a place for a tree that needs full sun isn't that easy in our yard. We finally decided where the perfect place would be and we were actually thinking of taking out a big rock and putting the tree in it's place. Well....easier said than done! The rock was more like a glacier, there was a little bit sticking up above the grass but there was a heck of a lot more below the surface! I have no idea how long I was digging out the stupid rock and the hole kept getting wider and wider. I decided it would be nice to have a big rock NEXT to the tree instead.
I really didn't get too emotional digging the hole until I started thinking why I was digging it. It's a strange combination of emotions. What do you do when you're filled with sadness, remorse, doubt, disappointment, but then relief, hopefulness, peacefulness, thankfulness, and the feeling that we're blessed to have what we have and be able to learn and grow from all this? I'm still trying to sort it all out not that I think I ever will.
So now we have a pretty little plum tree with a rock next to it and lots of dirt surrounding both of them. I think I'll plant some flowers around it and just wait for the plums to start growing! I told Miriam that she needs to watch over the tree and us and she'll love seeing her brothers and sister picking the plums year after year. Thankfully the tree is self pollinating so we should have no problem getting lots of plums year after year.
I wanted to send out a big Thank You to everyone who has sent cards, well wishes and gifts to us. Honor and Mikey think it's my birthday, we'll go with that. Also a personal "Thank You" to all the women who have opened up to me about your losses, it's a sucky "club" to be in but I'm glad to know many of you have gone on to have perfectly healthy pregnancies and babies. Thank You.